Wednesday, January 26, 2011


Love is a lot, but sometime it just is not enough...

Monday, January 24, 2011

First and Last

Its the circle of life. Things begin, things end. Both can be equally as hard. I miss easy ones like first kisses and last day of classes. First days of summers and last days wearing your north face.

Maybe its my mid-life crisis, but I am through with the hard sh*t, but it doesn't seem to want to quit me.

I am so Oblivious...

The post of my party drinking was my 100th post. I feel like it should be mentioned...

Better late than never though right...

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Sometimes you just got to go hard or go home....

You can see which one I picked....

I love me some Oprah...

Some Oprah to get you thru the day...

My philosophy is that not only are you responsible for your life, but doing the best at this moment puts you in the best place for the next moment-Oprah Winfrey

Every one of us gets through the tough times because somebody is there, standing in the gap to close it for us- Oprah Winfrey

The big secret in life is that there is no big secret. Whatever your goal, you can get there if you're willing to work-Oprah Winfrey

What I know for sure is that what you give comes back to you-Oprah Winfrey

Be thankful for what you have; you'll end up having more. If you concentrate on what you don't have, you will never, ever have enough-Oprah Winfrey

Breathe. Let go. And remind yourself that this very moment is the only one you know you have for sure-Oprah Winfrey

*I don't believe in failure. It is not failure if you enjoyed the process-Oprah Winfrey* My favorite

We got to do better....

This is a video of a man getting shot in his home when they did a drug raid. All he did was open his door and he was murdered. He was 45 and a drug addict, not dealer, but the sh*t still crazy. I started to tear up because I really worry about the safety of black men in this world. Ya'll know I am not biased towards race, but somethings you just cant avoid. Minorities are dying at an alarming rate, especially from murders from their own people. Sh*t makes my heart bleed because I see my brothers and I know its only so much longer I can protect them. Or my god sons. Just the thought of someone coming to me saying one of them got shot brings tears to my eyes.

So now, on top of our own internal issues, we have people shooting us like roaches with raid. Nah, b. I can not get down with this. I may get back lash for this but I believe we are part of the problem with this too. From the outside looking in, people are probably saying "if they don't care about their life why should we?" I am not saying their right, I am just saying neither are we. Its been years since Martin Luther King Jr, died and although things aren't the same, they are far from great. I don't want us to skip down the street singing negro spirituals holding hands. I dead ass just want us to be able to walk down the street without the possibility of death.

It hurts my heart. I cant change the world, and I cant protect my brothers and godsons. My wish is to never have the be at their funeral.

26 and 2 weeks...

I been 26 for exactly 2 weeks, and right now I am trying to go back to 25 or fast forward to 27. I have had a lot of things go on these past 2 weeks that I am shocked I have held up. I am not even in the mood for going into details not but I want to let every one who held me down these past two weeks know I love them.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

The Grass is always Greener

Is the grass always really greener on the other side? Probably. They might of just spruced that sh*t up cause they knew you were looking.

Monday, January 10, 2011

Thug Lovin....

Just the title made me lol...

SN- Can ya'll tell I am doing no work today?

So my home girl Kym just tweeted "Most women want a man with a lil thug in him. Deny it... I dare you"

You know my argumentative as was about to but I agree whole-heartedly. Yes, *hangs head in shame* I likes a rough neck. Smh

This started at a young young age. Not that young, I am not a floozy I hope. I hated to see guys crying in the yard in school. I kicked this boy I liked in the nuts, and when he fell on the asphalt bawling in pain, all feeling of infatuation we left on the tar with his tears. I walked away with no remorse. I mean I know it hurt, but he ain't have to cry like that.

I also used to only date guys in gangs, or with some affiliation. I don't know if this was because I liked thugs, or I was always trying to nurture someone... either way if you ain't do something funny with your hand, you couldn't be my man. I even got selective with it. You know my fave colors are Red, Black and Gold... So I stuck with Bloods.

Disclaimer- Judge free zone...

Don't get me wrong, I don't want a guy that's gonna beat my ass, or physically emotionally or in any way shape or form abuse me. That's just not happening. I have been blessed to never been in an abusive relationship, but I can say, if a man ever hit me, I do pray for his well-being.

I just want a man who I can feel protected by. I don't want to go out and have to worry my big mouth gonna put us in a situation my man can't handle. I mean, Stinkface has never had to fight because of my mouth in the streets, but if the occasion arouse, I know he would hold me down. I don't even mind if a guy cries, sometimes its endearing. I just don't want no p*syy *ye shrug*

I think its just female nature to want to feel protected, no matter how independent a female is. I mean, I'll fight a grown man myself... I just cant be the only one.

Things I learned this weekend....

So after the adventures of this weekend, I think I learned some very important lessons that I need to pass along. I like to lift as I climb

-You need a designated jawn. She dont got to be the driver. She doesn't even have to be sober. She just has to be logical and the voice of reason all times.

-You need homegirls who know what you fight face look like. Cause if you with someone who cant anticipate your moves, it might go down. basement

-Keep your ring and panties on at all times

-Sake is officially on the DO NOT DRINK List

-If your friends cant create a powerpoint for work, and bust someone ass, you not winning. You need better friends

-I have the BEST friends in the world

-Camera Phones are the devil

-Don't come out looking like you wanna get chose, when you've been chosen.

-Bring bread... Everywhere

-Take a sip of wine... it really does help.

-People don't listen when you tell them not to buy drinks for you on your birthday. Please plan accordingly

-If you don't have a perm, have a backup plan. Mine is the bun.

-You need a twitter, the re-cap is almost as fun as the night

Ok, when I get more Ill add them.

So I made it

My b-day was Thurs as some of y'all may know, and though there were some skeptics, I made it. This is my official Thank you

Every year, minus these last 2, I usually do a dinner and then sit my happy ass down. I get depressed about not being where I want to me, and I miss my father sorry I'm getting so deep on a Monday. These last 2 years have definitely been the best

In the past 4 days, I have laughed, cried (tears of joy), dance, smiled, joked, been gassed, drank, and just genuinely enjoyed myself more than I have in a very long time.

I feel Blessed to have the people I do in my life. I had females who rock suites on a regular basis about to fight 15 grown men on the drop of a dime, without even knowing for what. Lol.

if that ain't love, Idk what is

Tuesday, January 4, 2011


26 in 2 days...

*rubs Bengay on knees*

Blog Time

Ladies... Maybe even some gentlemen... Please read this. I whole-heartedly agree... I'm in the 70% (even tho I do partake in writing some lovey dovey stuff myself)

The more you know...

Friends.... How many of us have them?

They say friends are the family you choose...

I cant give myself credit for this, my judgment isn't that great...

I am going to go with "friends are the family God helped me choose"

F*ck A Resolution

Yea, I said it. I am not down for the resolutions this year. Every year I make resolutions and I get no where. This year, I am making goals. I am going to make weekly and monthly goals and targets. You know what I always say... "Baby Steps". How can I honestly expect to give myself 12 months to do a few minor task, then keep putting it off and putting it off... Then its October, My credit card still is maxed out, I didn't loose any weight, I didn't event take my GMAT, and I still live at home?

So Here are my January goals...

-handle any discrepancies with bills (I have a few bills I KNOW I am not supposed too)
-Loose 5 lbs
-Enjoy my birthday
-do at least 10hrs of p90x
-Read 2 books
-only make 3 purchases on my (now paid off) credit card

This change of outlooks on resolutions are brought on by the book club book. The Happiness project by Gretchen Rubin. It started off slow but know I love where she is going with this. I am actually going to start a goal group, where we email out weekly/ monthly goals and make sure we keep each other accountable, help to attain these goals, and even inspire each other. I am a firm believer in supporting each other, and I am down for the cause.

I hope you are making the best out of this blessing called life

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Happy New Year

Hello People! Happy New Years! I haven't been on this for a while and I do apologize. But I will be doing better in 2011 for so many things!

Ready Set Go!!!

I will go out more. I need to enjoy the life God has Blessed me with and the people he has Blessed me with meeting. Plus... I'm tired of everyone playing me and saying i been sleep by 9 in a Onsie in my Snuggie

I will make sure my money and ain't funny. I paid off my credit card yesterday, along with other miscellaneous bills. If its under $400 I will pay it off immediately. And if its not an emergency, and I cant pay cash... I dont need it.

I will look better. Lmao. Odd right. I have some gorgeous friends. When I am outside looking crazy, and they are looking amazing, I feel some type of way. I mean, it was my conscious choice to go out looking like a whole hot ass mess, but I just feel ugh... So this year, I am taking some time, to make sure I go outside looking good. I want people to be proud to walking with me.

Remember my Happiness week? I am taking one Happiness Day a month. I am working on me this year.

I will read more. I love reading, but I been slipping. I need to get back on it!

I will take more risk... More color, More spontaneity, more outgoing. I will just Make MORE out of life...